you make me feel so lonely and all i’m left with are my thoughts. i don’t need to cling to you nor do i need you constantly by my side, but i do need for my mind to be at ease and for my loneliness to be kept at bay. i don’t have that though. i’m just alone.

Go any direction, any place. Just leave and get away from everyone. I don’t think anyone would realize if I left anyways.

It’s like for most of us the night time is the worst. Emotionally, mentally, and even physically. We find ourselves laying there staring at the ceilings and feeling the emotions overflow out of our hearts and minds. Everything is hitting us. All that smiling and laughing we did during the day is gone. Nothing matters. The only thing that matters now is how depressed our minds are. We question why. Why now? Why is it that our emotions come out during the night. It’s confusing. Frustrating even. Even when we have a great day, it could be ruined by the emotions at night. After everything is done. After all those tears are done streaming down our faces , we close our eyes and now our mind is at ease. Goodnight. 

because I’m afraid to tell you how I feel. I don’t know how you’ll take it and I don’t want drama to start. I guess I’m just afraid of what you’ll think, and holding it inside seems so much better than telling the truth. But it isn’t, it’s hard and it hurts. I want to tell you what’s going on in my mind but I just can’t … 

You understand do you? You understand how some days, I’m okay. I want to laugh and smile and create something beautiful, how I want to show the world that I’m alive, I want to feel air rush into and out of my lungs. And other days, I want to take a bullet to my head, sit in my room and drag blades across my body. How I want to break things, people and objects alike. I want to slit my throat, swallow handfuls of pills and get hit by a car. You understand how it feels, to be happy one day, then depressed the next?